The Sun has been relayed through a glass window. In love with around my bed-parents/grandparents Nun's circle I eat small wafer of bread that priest, I Put the light on the tongue with my fingers his trembling he "to whisper," this is the body of Jesus while I eat The Sun was warming up, and I say to myself "I'm eating Jesus so that I know I will be all right. I was five years old I have just been analyzed with Ewing's Sarcoma deadly form of cancer, bone I'm getting poked and prodded ad nauseum it was 1969 I have just received my last rites Of course, Did not know that I know only about the warm feeling inside, and this incredible sense of operation,
I'm sitting at the piano white just staring at key ivory my fingers hurt.My mother was nodding her head as she was talking to my doctor on the phone in the other room thirteen years 1976 I buy old
Ewing's Sarcoma here we go again I poked and prodded ad nauseum four more years. I rarely listen to medicine and cancer as an enemy of me and I need to spend as little time as possible in the hospital. I've been through it, but I was forever changed. Now I'm missing my left leg and I was a teenager I jump into my schoolwork I get into a great College I'm leaving home to live in a dorm room My body is still common. My hair back. I can walk without a caneNo more stomach upsets, it is above the Can't move on
It's my sophomore at 1982. Mt Holyoke College I like here I studied hard, but I have a few friends. I can explain these experiences of cancer which was so new to my friends? I still have four tracks on my arms I don't know how to shake this "feeling" that something is going wrong. I saw the Sun stream through my window in my dorm room. I have a contract of everlasting love forgiveness of God and I keep tight with belief. I am going. Pain in my lower back to rum fever chills even I can't walk across the lawn to the class. I finally went to the doctor. My stomach has stopped working properly.Thanks to years of chemotherapy and radiation will be affected by my kidneys I'm rushed off to camps for you all of the urinary system I I have a dream that Jesus is carrying me between rows of nuns and feel safe and loved.
How do I change the school is close to home. I studied hard, I live off campus with some career women away from my friends that I can rarely relevant I do well in school, but my attempts to hide flaws in my past, my scars to nganomhasan in this part of me-don't tell nobody can know about my legs or cancer or any grief may be I will just keep achieving something good to win approval from family and friends. Set out to achieve my goals look put together to
I succeeded, and from there.It's success after success. How do I open my design business in California. I received a masters from Harvard, I travel to France to teach and study has become fluent in French, I work at the UN, I learn to PhD at Columbia, I'm not saying that I am not proud of these achievements, but I feel that they are because I had to fight to be here to fight to maintain life. The fight to give meaning to my life. The fight against God it was never about "Why me?" it's always just "why
It was after my internship at UN in Geneva working in children's rights are disabled at the how do I get news from medical in SwitzerlandWhere I'm working it august 1995 with my kidneys failed and I had to go back to the United States because my insurance will cover treatment abroad now at this time. I have used countless hours on my knees Trying to understand the purpose to excellence in all of this suffering, some I devoted love with God, but I might not have been ". Have a different theory many: Believe meI've tried them all and I tried every type of substitution treatment is (Needless to say I'm very open-minded and see all of these modalities is help believe how)
And so began the most incredible and that part of my life-living with kidney failure, I go 3 times per week, dialysis, it is a drain on every level, but most of all for me emotionally and finally I understand why it is to fightThe fight is over the ground. Normally strong health unafraid, at peace in the midst of the storm live The impartiality and balance and the most important with joy for the gift of life to be
In 1998 as part of the journey within this incredible of. I like both instructor at Kripalu DansKinetics Kripalu Yoga teacher and bring some sense to subject my body and make it into a career path has led me full circle I so much freer nothing to hide so have my presence in the classroom-only displayed-for my students and I I am still grateful not be alone in the challenges of Yogi Bhajan Tai: I Kundalini Yoga leader to the west, just get the kidney transplant last year.
October in the past I had to be hospitalized because of some hectic with dialysis, I get very stable since 1995 have few really, but I know there might be a problem, and here I have another. In the hospital with potentially dangerous situations at this time also held Is this not feel the grace and love and peace, I can't handle it. Although I try to In fact,I'm trying to attach myself to freaking out, but I'm just there to my yoga has conditioned me to tap into those places that know no peace joy Love quietness, and grace of allGod it's so simple, so much that my fingertips right texture within my grasp, I believe I have re-awakened my body to the memory of what came before starting my fight I found myself looking into each person who comes into the circle of my power in the hospital as a God. Walked into my room. How do I care for watching out for me.At this time. I realized that this was God too, and thereforeI can't play I can't leave their's
I was empty, so with my so at home with me, sound, make sure that my hear and even though I was being poked and prodded with peace in every cell.Which served as a sponge for pain.
Ecclesiastes in no time to take time and nadin apphae to paste them, I believe this is the time in my life when I can put my weapon and bask in the grace of God I am not sure what to change at any time, if I'm coming from the very fact of who I amOf course, which is the gift of yoga, I always in Divine and will thereforeThere is nothing to fight anymore, I am grateful, so that the Warrior has performed her service and now can retire her weapon and you want to join, I SatWater
Marsha T Metzger, Color Me Yoga for kids and teachers trainingAuthor and Director of the endless opportunities of Yoga & Dance classes and workshops, and teaching and working healingwww.yogaom.com
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